My Life Is Not My Own"God, don't let my life become so busy that I forget that you ARE my life."
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Name: Melody
Country: United States
State: Ohio
Metro: Dayton
Birthday: 2/6/1985
Gender: Female


Interests: trying to be a better follower of Christ every day, listening to music, singing, painting, dancing, hanging with my wonderful guy and my friends, and trying to figure out what God is gunna throw in my path next...
Expertise: im a jack of all trades....master of none i suppose
Occupation: Student
Industry: Business


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Member Since: 9/13/2004

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Wednesday, January 03, 2007

well im back from christmas break... it had its ups and downs thats for sure.  there were good times with jarrod and i got to see nick and other friends a little but there was lots of fighting with my parents and wanting to just be out on my own.  i did finally get a car though.  not for christmas or anything but jarrod got me a car that his cooworker was selling and its all fixed up and everything but still at home til we get insurance taken care of so i should have it by the end of the month :)  so that is exciting!  other than that...not a whole lot going on.   ive been pretty stressed out and hopefully jterm will let me relax a little b4 the spring...but somehow i doubt it.  i had my first day of class today....too much spanish...thats all i have to say.  2 hrs of spanish at a time every day when i havent spoken it since may...yea  not ideal and im waay rusty...lol.   oh well im sure itll all come back.  ok not much more to say right now.  bye


Saturday, December 09, 2006

im so sick of people right now.... where are all the real people?!  almost everyone i seem to be in contact with around here is so fake or just so wrapped up in themselves or some kind of drama that there are no real relationships even going on.   im just sick of it.  we're supposed to be in college.  what is with people acting like they are in junior high and they dont know how to handle life?!  grow up.  im just so sick of being here and i cant graduate and get away from this place soon enough.  MVNU...life changing...yea u could say that...too bad its had a negative effect.  maybe im the exception but i just havent had the 'wonderful' experience that everyone else seems to talk about.  i haven't made many friends that i think ill talk to in like 20 years.  im not going to go through withdrawal when i cant see mount vernon people or can't play on the team anymore.  im not going to come visit all the time.  i dunno where else id be but i feel like im almost just wasting my time here now... but its like i dont exist anyway so i guess it doesnt matter right?  this is the lonliest time of my life i think because one of my best friends isnt here anymore and the love of my life is also not here.  the people who actually care about me are too far away to make a difference right now.  i feel like im stuck here, alone, with no support.  but more importantly when im at home with them...i just feel like i matter...and unfortunately thats the only time i feel like i matter. so needless to say..im really looking forward to jarrod coming up tmrw and me going home on friday.  i guess thats it...im done venting for now.     this doesn't apply to everyone  im just disgusted, so dont just get offended bc it might not be about u...but then again it might be.  oh well.  i dont care who i offend.  this is my xanga and thats how i feel so deal with it.  night.


Saturday, December 02, 2006

3 projects due tuesday, 1 project wed, test thurs and then finals...all i have to say is t - 13 days until im home again....and it cant come soon enough


Thursday, November 16, 2006

this is something that my fiance wrote recently and i just wanted to post it here so more people can see it because i think it hits so close to home for a lot of us who know what the church has turned into and have been hurt by it...i hope that maybe some people's eyes will be opened bc of this and maybe they will realize that there are still good Christian people still out there....there just not the ones u hear about unfortunately...

My Apology

On behalf of Christians and those who profess to be Christians, I would like to apoligize to all non-believers. I apologize for us not being the examples God has called us to be. I understand why so many refuse to step into a church. Christianity today has done a good job convincing the world that those who profess to be Christians are pefect and have all the answers. Both couldn't be further from the truth. A Christian is someone who is far from perfect- but they're someone that's been wrecked by the grace of a loving God. And as for answers, the only answer I have is Christ. To be honest, anyone who claims to know everything is someone I wouldn't want to be around.

Christians are humans and go through daily struggles. It's ashame that those who get caught lying and trying to cover things up are those who get all the attention. I apologize for all the negative models of Christianity. TV preachers in thousand dollar suits preaching about nothing but money while having a spirit of arrogance. It's easy to do that when you're making a 6 figure salary like a lot of those preachers do. The only model thats true is what Jesus said in His Word. Im sorry we have perverted and made it complicated when in reality, Christianity can be summed up in one phrase. "Love God. And love people". It's that simple.

We are called to hate the sin and LOVE the sinner. But so often the sin is hated and the sinner is hated even more. And my heart breaks over that. If there's one place a person should feel love regardless of what they've done it should be in a church or in the presence of believers. But so many who go to a church looking for acceptance are going only to leave feeling worse than before. We are called, in love, to address sins but only in love. We are called to tell others that God loves them as they are but He loves them too much to leave them the way they are.

I hope all of you can realize that while there's a lot wrong with Christianity today, when you find people that are centered of Christ and walk what He taught about. Just loving people, that's true Christianity. Not about having the biggest church or the fanciest suits because those mean nothing. For those who have been hurt by a church, my heart breaks for you. I know the pain you're feeling because I've been hurt by the church as both a non Christian and as someone in church leadership. I've seen first hand the ugly side of Christians but know there are some out there who portray the beautiful side of the church.

Know this. God loves you. And I'm not trying to sound cliche. Whether you believe in Him or not, He still loves you and believes in you. Even if you have no plans on following Him, He will still love you 100 percent. He doesn't know how to be any different.

My prayer is for all to know and feel the real love of a loving God.


Monday, November 13, 2006

sometimes i lack words for how life is going...but this song does a good job of summing up how things have been recently...

Things change, plans fail
You look for love on a grander scale
Storms rise, hopes fade
And you place your bets on another day
When the going gets tough
When the rides too rough
When youre just not sure enough

(chorus)
Jesus will still be there
His love will never change
Sure as the steady rain
Jesus will still be there
When no one else is true
Hell still be loving you
When it looks like youve lost it all
And you havent got a prayer
Jesus will still be there

Time flies, hearts turn
A little bit wiser from lessons learned
But sometimes, weakness wins
And you lose your foothold once again
When the going gets tough
When the rides too rough
When youre just not sure enough

(repeat chorus) (2x)

When it looks like youve lost it all
And you havent got a prayer
Jesus will still be there

its been rough lately..i wont lie...but things are getting better i think....

ya know.... when I look up....things start to look up...funny how the God thing works isnt it...



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